This Is I
The brief
Matsumoto crafts a tender character study that follows Kenji's transformation into Ai Haruna with genuine warmth, avoiding both melodrama and sanitized inspiration porn. Haruki Rivocaduki anchors the film with a performance that feels lived-in rather than performed, especially in the quieter cabaret scenes where identity gets explored through glitter and stage lights. The 130-minute runtime lets relationships breathe naturally, though it occasionally meanders when focusing on side characters. Perfect for anyone who connected with the emotional authenticity of "Moonlight" or appreciated how "Tangerine" handled transgender stories with both grit and heart.
The verdict
If you appreciate intimate character studies with authentic performances and have the patience for deliberate pacing, this tender transgender drama delivers genuine emotional rewards through its lived-in portrayal and beautiful cabaret scenes. If you prefer tighter narratives or need constant plot momentum, the 130-minute runtime and meandering side character focus will likely test your attention span.
Watch with
- 👤 Solo viewing for personal reflection
- 👥 With LGBTQ+ friends for solidarity
- ⚠️ May be triggering for those with bullying trauma
Heads up
- Bullying and harassment scenes (moderate)
- Discussion of gender dysphoria (moderate)
- Brief scenes of discrimination (brief)
Credits
- Director
- Yusaku Matsumoto
- Cast
- Haruki Mochizuki, Takumi Saitoh, Tae Kimura, Seiji Chihara, Ataru Nakamura, Kaito Yoshimura, Yumi Suenari
Official synopsis
Bullied for wanting to be an idol, Kenji finds belonging in a cabaret and help from a trailblazing doctor,
The Double
Make a night of it
Pair this with Perfect Blue (1998)
Both explore identity transformation and the psychological cost of performance.
Total runtime: 2h 10m + 1h 22m = 3h 32m
